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Showing posts with label Feelings. Show all posts

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

The Unbearable Pain..

It was time for me to leave home & proceed towards the Bhubaneswar Railway Station. As the time passed by, my heartbeat was becoming more noticeable. Each time I notice my heartbeat, I felt as if a piece of that bloody (full of blood) thing was breaking down.
                I have been at home for the last 11 days. Those days I have done only one thing & that is ‘nothing’. And now, I’ve to leave for my workplace (panipat). I realize that I’m going to miss My Father, My Brother, My Sweet home, My Cute Car, My TV, My Bed, etc, etc…….and a lot more things. (just exclude the rotten thing in the dustbin as I have got them here also).
                When the damn machine of ‘TITAN’ pointed at me that it is already 8:30 PM, I could not control my outburst. So, I went down to the market place nearby my home, had a couple of that long & white thing with a brown end (readers have to guess that thing). Then I suddenly realized that some of the glands in my eyes have started functioning heavily and are giving out a lot of watery substance through my eyes (I wonder, do I have any hole in my eyes?).
                Suddenly I felt a very heavy pain inside me, though I could not recognize which part of my body was causing trouble, yet I felt restless. I went to the backseat of my car, almost fainted there for about 5 minutes. At that time I recalled all my memories with my family. (24 years in just 5 mins, what a great speed). I tried to remember the happiest & some naughtiest moments to keep myself in the sense & also to feel better. Really that made me felt great. Then I went home with some packaged food for dinner from a nearby restaurant.
                I saw the face of my father, he was upto tears even but controlled silently. He patted on my back ( it felt as I have got what I wanted & all my pain vanished at once) and asked me for anything more I wanted, I denied. He said ‘OK’ and left for his friend’s house (Doctor Uncle).
                Now I moved towards my brother, he was also in a bluemood & a bit of illness was crawling through his body. He was watching Hindustan Times News on TV about that bloody kalmadi scam. I told him to drop me at the railway station ( did I really or I went like this “ it’s high time, let’s move to station, SUNIL must be waiting there).
                A few moments later we both put on our shoes and left home. I said good bye to each & everything that came before my retina & turned the key of my car (in clockwise direction).................